Time Is Too Fast

06 Oct, 2026

When I was growing up, everything was new. That novelty stretched out the days and made years feel full.

Now I'm much older. That feeling still held true until a few years ago when my daughter outgrew the trampoline park. Suddenly, that door closed. The freedom to be unpredictable disappeared. It was replaced by typical adult concerns: balancing budgets, tending the lawn, and yelling at the sky about the news.

Now time races past in a blur. Each day like the one before it: work Monday through Friday, exercise on MWF, free on Saturdays, church responsibilities on Sunday. The calendar rolls from one planned community event to the next -- a steady march of sameness.

I recently tried cannabis. While it was great for getting lost in music, it left me foggy. The days that followed brought a dull listlessness, scattered memory, and boredom. Instead of slowing time down, it sped it up in a more agonizing way. That ended that experiment.

So how do I actually slow life down? How do I recover an open-ended sense of wonder?

I don't need another productivity hack, and I don't need another project on my plate.

I do know that I want more time to help folks who need it.